I tried so hard..

I tried so hard,
To make myself a better future...
I tried so hard,
To have less worry in the future...
I tried so hard,
And still no light I see in the darkness...
I tried so hard,
And it seems just make my life worse...

From full scholarship bachelor degree,
8A 2B in first year,
8B 2A in second year,
Second class upper after third year,
Passing master degree in Uni Hertfordshire, UK,
Self study and pass CCNA (Cisco Certified Network Associate),
Self sponsor for CEH (Certified Ethical Hacker) classes,
Self sponsor for flight ticket and work visa to UK,
Tried to hard to observe and learn in UK office despite seniors were too busy to train me,
Rejected on HSMP (High Skilled Migrant Program) and come back KL,
Pass CEH,
Self sponsor for MCSE (Microsoft Certified System Engineer) classes,
Pass MCSE (7 papers),
Pass 70-350 ISA server...
2 more papers to go for MCSE: Security...

And these seems don't bring anything after all...

Or I am not trying hard enough???

JUST LIKE THE SONG BELOW:

Bone Thugs N Harmony ft Akon - I Tried (Lyrics)