Swing~~~

After couples of salary paid early this year, I am finally relief!
I had made it!

Working in the UK with leets, challenging working environment and better personnel communication has been my dream after I left my campus.
I carried this dream from Heathrow back to Malaysia in Jan 06 and tried hard to realise it.
I force myself stick to boring CCNA textbook, weekend, off- hours and even in office.
I am at the bottom of the candidate list that company wanna train and i couldn't help it. Just because I am too new.
I force myself read hundreds of boring computer news (eg. Fujitsu integrate motion protection in her hard-disk, Intel gain no turnover in 3rd quarter in U.S. etc) to keep myself updated to the industry.
I brought lunchbox from home everyday, just to save the money for visa application.
I overdraft 2 credit cards for CEH course. And 3rd one for my flight ticket to the UK.
Everyday I keep asking myself, how to become more skillful in order to survive in UK job industry?
I had no choice to buy car in the first month I start working, as my lovely gf is leaving UK for good less than 30 days.
I had arguement with my lovely gf often during first month I worked here, due to financial pressure. I was like the string of well tuned violin, so tense yet sound so loud when it is touched.
I can't sleep well everyday, as I afraid in the next morning, I will be told in the office I am not capable enough and I found nowhere to cover my credit card debt.
When this kind of stress life goes for a whole year, it is not gonna be funny.
Physically, life in KL was ok, but it is mentally killing when you have a dream and you have no idea how to archieve it. There is no clear image for future and every decision I made seems like gamble. It drain my energy faster than I imagine.

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Finally, I had enough budget to cover my credit card debt. I got my car and able to go London whenever I like. I got badminton for Monday, Movies for Wednesday, Spanish class for Thursday, lunch with a pint for friday, and so many friends to visit on weekends.
My boss said my performance is generally good (I earn quite a lot for the company) and he will apply the working permit on my behalf.

However,
Dream can be archieved.
As my manager told me today, stronger is not always the winner, the one who stand till the last win the game.

If my work permit application failed, I won't be upset to go back Malaysia, my lovely home.
Just because, I had archieved my dream.
So, I swing and slack around with joy. Don't even bother thinking what is my next destination...
Rest well for next battle.
Wanna swing with me, and we shall dance with spanish rhythm...