She is upset!

My girlfriend is mad on me now! She has been crying on the phone... I had hurt her deeply... and i didn't do any wrong, just saying something wrong. :(
HC is interested on my XDA and ask if i wanna sell it. I told him maybe, but i have to get permission from my gf as it is the phone given by her. And if i finally sell the phone, I have no intention to keep the money, coz it is not belonged to me anyway. And if she refuse and wanna take back, ok...
Why could i let go the xda coz it is barred in the UK. Instead of letting it lay in my drawer for nothing but value decreased or device malfuntion due to flatted bactery. I would prefer it to be used by someone. For my thinking, the only way to present the value of a electronic device is to use it. Mobile device is not same as those decoration items such as dolls, jemelry, picture and clothes coz once the technology advanced and it is out of current standard. The device is only a heavy, highly fragile and expensive eletronic stuff. Same as today, no one will keep its Pentium 100MHz at home and be proud of it, right? This is the value of electronic device.
My gf is so sad as this is her first gift for me and she have to cheat the O2 for it. So to appreciate it, I should keep it. I wanna make clear about one thing: I really appreciate her intention and I love her! But is it not keeping the device mean not appreciating? I appreciate her intention, so i had tried myself harder to pleased her, let her feel warm while she is outside in the UK and have a lot of life tension. I am willing to bring her for durian, pasar mooncake when we are in Malaysia. Besides, I am learning to cook new dishes so that she can eat better when i reach there. Bcoz i letting the XDA goes, means all my intention before as the testimony of appreciation gone?
Because, I also wanna appreciate the device. Every eletronic device has its own lifetime. Pentium 4 won't last forever, Windows XP won't last over mid 2007, XDA exec will soon be replaced by newer model with slimmer body, lighter weighter, more powerful functionality etc... As an IT worker, I just couldn't let any electronic device's value gone without using it. That's why i wanna sell the Xda, or give it to someone close to me and fully utilise the device. That's simple. So, on my hand, the device will find its value as it is at least worked
But, eletronic device utilization philosophy and relationship maintenance is totally different kind of things. She seems to be quite sad and I really dunno how to console her or pleased her again. Besides, I feel it is a bit ridiculous as if the things is totally given to me, I should have full control of it, right? I respect the giver, so i will ask for permission, but seems asking permission will cause a big trouble.
Just wanna say: Baby, when the time you are upset, I am upset too in the office. :(
Dunno what to do, dunno how to do... ai...

How to be skillful in career!

I am talking about how to be skillful employee:

1) Self-equiped with excellent skills. (Consistently doing self-improvement)

2) Grow up in consistent and positive competiting enviroment. (Work in international corporate)

3) Be creative. (Be sensitive to everything happened around me, money is not my concern)


So the conclusion is: grow myself up and jump into big corporate, then be sensitive and couragable to break the rules.

Summary: What is the future of IT employment?

To answer "what is the future of IT employment?", it is important to firstly make clear about one point "What is IT going to be?" If you turn back and look at the development of IT, 56kbps modem connection is just hot new and everyone is looking for Pentium I. I was playing ICQ and IRC that time as it is not common yet. What is going on now? MSN is essential for everyone. Everyone can easily own a web server and domain name. You can do everything in the Internet... Dun wanna say more about now. And what is the future?
I believe, IT will become like cars... Everyone use it, everyone can fix certain level of it... and everyone not need to attend a degree course in order to know about it! So, there are two ways of getting profit in car industry: be very specialised to create sport car, or be very smart to make business earn money with cars...
Same as IT, I think we IT workers, in the future, can either be very professional in IT, which leading the technology, or, be very smart to merge business with IT. I have to admit that, with proper use of IT, a business can cut a lot of cost due to less employment. Implementing such merging advantages need 3 things: very detailed understanding of current technology, very accurate analysis of current marketing trend, and CREATIVITY!
So, three things : high level understanding of current technologies, accurate recognition of current business trend and creativity.
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Bcoz, I dun wanna stay in a company for long just bcoz i can't find a similar job with same pay outside. I wanna stay in a company because it recognise my ability, trust me and let me try, even with low pay. So, the logic goes here

Find a company who recognise me
---------> Jump around companies
----------------------> Be skillful enough to jump around.

The future IT is IT + Business + Arts + Creativity.

Ops... It is...

Time past away, fast and quiet! Whenever it is in company, or at home...
Today, as i worked OT from 10.30am to 3.30pm in the company, i couldn't finished the workload i estimated, which is 1 1/4 report. Later on, i overslept for my nap and didn't go to the gathering in The Curve for my secondary school prefect board gathering. I ended up watching shows all night long and didn't finished my ccna exam question as i scheduled.
It is 1.50am and I still have no mood to do anything, although my pda showed that my workload is terribly accumulated.
I took 15 mins sitting on the chair, saying nothing, seeing nothing, thinking nothing... just to figure why i lost all my initiative....
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It is you! My dear darling wen yih (a.k.a. dudu). I miss you terribly so much! I thought my life can't be just normal when you are not beside me physically (you are still always in my heart). But... it is different! How could i use words to describe how terribly i need you around... It may be the next topic for my next post...
Miss you again... My sweet heart. Good night! Hope you rest wel after a the egypt trip. The world is so big, but in my heart, the distance between you and me are so tiny close!